Music has always been my passion. I’m not talking about listening to it. Anyone can do that, and most people do. I am talking about creating it. And more specifically, I am talking about writing lyrics. I am a songwriter. Whether I ever make a dime off of it or not, that is what I am. I do not write because I want to make money. I write because I love it.
When my dad passed away I had no idea how to express what I was feeling. I was 12 years old at the time and it was the first time I had ever written anything. It was a poem. I felt less alone after that, like writing had become my sanctuary. I spent the next few years writing short stories and poems. And then my mom bought me a keyboard.
Now, I have always loved music. I grew up immersed in it. My mom and her sisters would sing and play guitar and I would sing along with them. I would do talent shows and sing karaoke at local restaurants up until I was too shy to do so. But I had never created my own before. That keyboard changed my life. I had no idea how to play it, no idea how to read music. So I learned to play a few things by ear. And then one day I just decided to make something up. I played that tune over and over again until words just started coming out. I was 14 years old when I wrote my first song. I honestly cannot remember what it was about. I never wrote it down. But I do remember how I felt. Vulnerable. But at the same time I also felt safe because I knew no one would hear it unless I wanted them to.
I am 31 years old now and I still create music. When I was 22, I taught myself how to play guitar. Last year I decided to take a 6 week crash course through Berklee College of Music and became a certified songwriter. I did it for me. To prove to myself that I am good at what I do.
Whenever my heart is heavy and my mind is full, music is there. MY music. It never fails me, no matter how many times my spoken words do. I have been lucky enough to have been told that my music has been there for others as well. Everything I have written is 100 percent me. Those words are my feelings. My experiences. And I will gladly feel vulnerable if it means that it is helping others to get through something in their life.